real life reflections

My Christmas Gift

A couple of weeks ago, I was asked to provide a centerpiece and place settings for a table for our Relief Society (the women’s organization in our church) Christmas dinner. It shouldn’t have been a big deal. But, I made it a big deal. “Everyone is expecting something amazing from me” I thought to myself “I am a crafter after all”. And, “gosh, if I don’t make it wonderful, and handmade and spectacular, I won’t be able to blog about it.” (yes, I am truly humbling myself to share this with all of you). I went out and bought supplies to make these gorgeous fabric covered paper cones, ribbon and fabric and everything else. And then, I stopped myself. “Why am I putting myself through all of this?” I wondered to myself. “I don’t really have the time, and the effort would take all my extra energy and enthusiasm for other things.” And I sat down and had myself a really hard, long thought/talk.
I came to a conclusion.
I love this blog. I love crafting. I want this blog to have lots of followers, and to maybe even possibly down the road provide an income for my family. I want to have great projects. But mostly, more than anything else, I want this blog to help people. I want it to inspire creativity- and the joy that comes with making beautiful things. I want it to inspire beauty and the desire to improve the home you have- to make it a place that is full of happiness and light. I want to help people discover skills and talents that they might not have known they had otherwise. And, above it all- I want this blog to truly reflect who I am. Not just who I would really like you to think that I am.
So, my Christmas gift to you is: You have my permission to simply be yourself. If you don’t want to manufacture the most ornate, bedazzled centerpiece known to humankind- you have my permission to let it go, to gather up the simple things you have, and just let it be. You have my permission to have a messy house for a while (or forever if you’re fine with it), my permission to let your kids play video games for the entire duration of winter break, you have my permission to neglect neighbor gifts and any other obligations that serve no higher purpose in your life. You have my permission to simplify your expectations of yourself and others. To spend some time searching out your desires and aspirations for life and to eliminate everything else from the mix. You have my permission to be YOU!
And, for Christmas this year- I’m giving myself the gift of Me.

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  • Karen
    December 22, 2010 at 11:00 pm

    And sometimes keeping it simple and real is the most beautiful of all! Just like you! Love ya doll.

  • Rugrats & Royalty
    December 23, 2010 at 3:30 am

    What an amazing post. I could have written it myself word for word. I *want* more followers too (I only have 8) but, my blog is my peace. It's where I can write what I want & do what I want. I should definitely share with you my craft-fails that are not worthy of the blog…perhaps I will one day!

    And being you is just the right way to be.

    Happy holidays!

  • Gwen @ Gwenny Penny
    December 23, 2010 at 2:38 pm

    Another heartfelt, amazing post, Amy. I love these:) Thank you for letting me get away with just wrapping my gifts in ordinary, store-bought wrapping paper with ordinary, store-bought sticker gift tags and ordinary, store-bought stick-on bows.

  • Aleisha Z. Coleman
    December 23, 2010 at 3:19 pm

    great post. i like to craft things, too. it is always a dilemna when it comes to giving them away isn't it? total different ball game…i am proud of you for following your dream and talents–good luck!

  • Brande J.
    December 26, 2010 at 6:14 pm

    The table you did for the activity was beautiful! I am glad you didn't stress yourself out and go ALL out just to try to impress everyone…you sure impressed me with what you did…simple and beautiful. Thanks for sharing your talents and I am glad you are YOU! 🙂

  • **Amy**
    December 29, 2010 at 6:51 am

    Beautifully said! Sometimes we try to impress until we are stressed out and the entire creative process becomes a burden and a chore…which defeats our main reason for crafting…to enjoy the creation process! Good for you to recognize it and to be brave enough to let it go! Loving your blog posts!